TG- add me to the list of people who want to kick your H in the junk.
Seriously, whatever your issue with your weight is, that is no excuse for your H to say he can't be faithful. It's like saying he can't be faithful to someone who has brown eyes.
I have also struggled with my weight for most of my adult life. I was morbidly obese until I had RNY in 2009. For me, the weight was a symptom of a bigger problem, which is why I am currently in counseling.
I could sit here and tell you what an A hold your H is being and how you are so much better off without him, but I know you love him and me saying all of that probably won't make you feel better.
I have seen pics of you and you are beautiful. Just remember that. If you want to make a change in your life, do it for YOU and only you.
"Everyone you meet has baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack." ¤Formerly DelinquentGurl¤