Ct, you're doing great for it being just two months from bomb day. (I was a basket case for it seems like forever.)
I just want you to know detachment is not 100% a will power decision and then it happens instantly. It is more a natural process that takes time coupled with your own determination. The time is different for different people.
You're psyche one day reaches a point where enough is enough and the negative emotions get ratcheted back a little at a time. That usually coinsides with the realization that you can survive and even thrive if the M ultimately fails. The M no longer has a firm grip on your future happiness.
Then you can think straight, set some goals, evaluate the sitch. It looks like your H is on the proverbial fence. You have a better shot than many at saving the M ie. not the old M but making a better/new one. But for pete's sake - detach first, it's healthier for you and ultimately for all.
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Me 53 XW 50 M 18 Years +2 S14 D19 Bomb 10-24-10 Served 1-27-11 Mediate 4-21-11 Civil D Final 6-2-11 No church anullment "A man is not finished when he is defeated, he is finished when he quits."
