So after more talk and whatnot, she has basically said that I need to goto NY for two reasons mainly. I have better odds there of improving myself and proving my changes to her while there, in terms of contact with the kids, job opportunities, and living arrangements. She needs me to go to test herself, whether he wants me by her side, to miss me or not, or even if she wants to be married.
I will need advice on what to do from afar to give her the most reason to believe that being married to the man I am (not was) would be in the best interest of her and our children. She says she likes the man I am, but she does not want to be in a relationship now. But never once has she said anything of the sort that implies a NO Not gunna happen...always I do not know what I want yet.
We have become closer friends, we touch minor, strokes of the back, arms, hair out of the face. She says she can see I am a better person, but only in NY can I prove my worth if she chose that.
I just need all the help I can get in NY to not make any mistakes.
