Well...he went with me for counselling and I thought the therapist was great. Really positive and non judgemental, he feels positive about marriages and relationships which was good to hear.
My H broke down several times and things came out that I didn't ever hear before (like...the fact that a lot of his friends don't like me, that I'm too argumentative, etc...). We both cried a lot.
We went home and had dinner together (first time in two weeks), I felt hopeful that maybe he will continue therapy. He said he will let me know in about a week. But later, I heard him saying to someone on the phone he is definitely moving out. He was also making plans to go vacationing in Asia for Xmas.
I spent the whole night and morning crying. I feel like I can't cope at all, like I just want to throw in the towel and run away. I don't understand why this is happening to me. I'm a good person. I don't deserve any of this. I would love him so much to come to the therapist, but I understand that has to be his decision. I hate that he's so blase about it, while my heart feels like it's been ripped out of my chest and then stomped on.
I'm thinking about starting to pack my things and go home to my parents and just stay there. Good idea/bad idea?
