My wife called yesterday to ask if I could take my son to football, before I went to my AA meeeting, I was surprised at the call as she wouldn't usually ask me for any help?, it wasn't a problem to me and I said yes, not sure if she is testing my commitment to change?
I got there about 2minutes late, my son was panicking he would be late,so wife is calling me, telling me I was late!
I told her there was plenty of time, there was I got him there early!!!, but she was having a go at me because my son was moaning at her, I didn't raise my voice, didn't argue back, just said there was plenty of time and I'll get him there. No problem
I got him there and he was fine, I told him about stressing his mum out panicking, and he said sorry, I felt for him, but told him not to worry.
I called my wife, and when she came on the phone, I could tell by the tone of her voice she thought I was going to start agruing about her calling me about being late, but I was very calm, and just mentioned did she need the kids school uniforms I had back at mine, I could tell she was slightly surprised by this, she was fine about it,the agression in her voice dropped straight away, she thanked me and asked if I could drop them off after my AA meeting.
The meeting went great, it was funny and sad at times with the stories people tell, but I'm made welcome and I enjoy going.
When I came out I called her to say I would be dropping the things off shortly, she was really friendly, and then started to ask how the meeting went,etc, I said it was great and that I enjoyed it, she said I sounded happy?
I got there and the kids came running out, hugging me and kissing me, I gave her the clothes, and our daughters musical instrument she had left, she was all smiles, telling me things the kids had done etc, all very nice, I kissed the kids and left, as I was leaving my daughter came running out to show me something she had made, my wife just stood at the door smiling, as she showed me and kissed me, surely a mothers instinct would be pulling at her with the love these kids have for me??, I waved bye and left.
5 minutes later she phoned me, asking about a part of the uniform she thought was missing, then she said its ok, I said, no problem and bye, she thanked me for taking them over and said bye, all really nice.
I didn't go straight home, and went to the store to get something to eat, as I walked around shopping I knew she would call me, I just knew??
I got in the car and as I drove home the phone rang!, my wife!! She said that she had called my place and that I wasn't home, I said I was just shopping and was now going home, she was asking if everything was ok with me as I seemed quiet??
I said I was fine, thanks for the concern, but I was great? She said that she was just making sure I was ok? Not sure where this came from, I didn't really speak to her, but was laughing and joking with the kids?
When I got home I sent her a text, saying I really appreciate the call and her concern, but I was great and felt good, but at times missed my best friend. Is that pursuing??, not sure, but I didn't mention love, wife, or us, just my best friend??
This morning I send my usual, "are the kids ok" text, again rather than just texting back she calls me.
She tells me they are fine, and that she had to go and buy birthday presents for our daughters friends as she had forgot, and that it was a panic this morning, but daughter was very happy with the gifts they bought.
I ususally have them on a Friday night, but because my wife wanted to change days, she asked could she have them tonight, I have them Sat,Sun, Mon, yeah no problem, the kids are not happy though, they told me, but I asked them to keep quiet so not to upset mum.
During the call she said, don't forget you don't have them tonight, I just said yes I know, why would I forget that? She then asked if I was going to call and see them later?? Bit of a strange one I thought?, I said I had no plans as of yet and if it was ok I would, she then said come anytime its not a problem, just call before to make sure they are in? I said thanks and said I'd call her later.
Now I maybe wrong here, but this doesn't sound like a woman who wants to have nothing to do with me? Who only a few weeks ago told me she hated me and didn't want to speak to me? Who on the night when she has the kids, has basically invited me round to see them and her? Again I maybe thinking too much, but these are big changes.
I will go around and see them later, I want to, so I'm not going to say no to detach further, I want to see my kids!! Yes she will be there, but she's their mother!!! I can't help thinking that she is using the kids as an excuse to see me at times, and a reason to call me?? Not sure, but again I don't want to get carried away and get my hopes up!!!
Yesterday I saw her aunt who she is very close to me wife. She was asking how I was etc Then she said that my wife had told her that we were getting on great and were speaking a lot, her aunt was really pleased and just said to me, whatever your doing keep it up, just be nice to her and anything can happen. I told her I had messed up, I know that, but I love her with all my heart and just want her back. She again just said, keep it going.
At the moment it is all very positive, slowly slowly its getting better, I just hope we can resolve our problems, I can maintain my changes, and she can somehow forgive me for what I have done.
