Can't sleep. H followed me upstairs tonight and complained that I won't talk to him about what he wants to talk about. So I went back down to the couch and told him that I am sorry he feels that way and that I am willing to talk, but if there is something he wants to talk about, then he needs to start that conversation, I can't do it for him.

He was VERY angry that I am taking the stance I am taking. For the first time EVER, I was the one talking him down from anger. I kept my cool and didn't allow him to suck me into anything. I held my ground and I think we left the conversation a little closer than we entered it. I was actually able to end the conversation on a good note (I am very appreciative that he has been willing to go to MC a few times and I think that he has been wonderful to have put effort into something that he doesn't currently want).

We will see what kind of mood he is in tomorrow. I am actually still in a pretty good mood and pleased with how I handled the conversation. I am in a good place right now with my decisions and feel like I am being honest with myself and the situation (regardless of how H feels about either).

I really need to reward myself for this one!


Me: 32/ H: 32/ S13/ D5
T: 15/ M: 8
Rock bottom: 4/11
ILYB: 5/11, but I knew it at least a yr before
Gaining acceptance: 8/11

You must be the change you wish to see. - Mahatma Gandhi