I'm so sad and don't know what to do anymore

[ayngl]

Thank you so much for responding soon 25yearsmlc. Here are answers to your questions. Since we seperated, he calls me 4-5 times a day. Its like it used to be except he does not live with me. About 2 months ago we started meeting 2-3 times a week. Before that it would take 2 or 3 weeks to meet. He used to be mean. But now he is friendly. When he comes to visit, he does not stay over. There has not been any sexual intimacy since we seperated because he did not want to. In July I found out that he had applied for a transfer. I thought it would not happen. His reasons for wanting out were because he was not happy living with me. He said I made his life a living hell which is true. I did and I regret so much. I wish I could do it over. He said he got depressed to the point of thinking of commiting suicide. Since he moved out, he is happier and never wants to go through that experience again. He says he loves me but cannot live with me. It almost cost him his life. I have changed the way I react to things and by letting things slide. I am no longer critical and I just enjoy his company. He does not believe that there will be much change if he moved back. He says he knows how I am and what bugs me. He says he can never make me happy. I've tried to reason with him about us but he is very stuck and stubborn in his decisions. He had already asked for a transfer before I started acting differently after reading Divorce Remedy. I thought he would tell them that he has changed his mind but he seems very excited about the move. He still has not filed for divorce yet but I'm thinking he will when he decides he wants to marry her or she pressures him to divorce me. He is so in love with her.

I am trying to GAL but it is difficult. I think I am a little depressed and I tried taking a class but could not focus. So I have wasted $600 by not doing it anymore until my mind is better. I keep doing the 180s by not being critical or negative or constantly trying to talk about the relationship like I used to.

Tonight we celebrated our 2 yrs of marriage by him coming to cook me the same dinner we had at our wedding. Even though he is leaving the marriage, he still did this. We went for a walk first and then grocery shopping and then cooked. Then he left.