I'm Still Here Pt Deux

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So I totally did something tonight that I am surprised I had the balls to do.
H's mail has been sitting here for 2 months. Today I told myself if it was still there when I got home from work I was going to bring it to him.
Sure enough, it was there.
I drove to his work (he works at a convenience store) and I am surprised I had the strength to walk in.
His back was to me as I walked in, so I walked up to the counter and said his name. When he looked up, it took him a second to register it was me, and he looked surprised.
He said hi, and I said hi and handed him his stack of mail. He said thank you and I told him he was welcome and turned around and left.

I wasn't even out of the parking lot before I broke down.

Half way home he sent me a text saying it was good to see me and that I look good.

I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest.