In the eye of my storm

[LITB]

Hey LITB. How are you doing?

I am actually doing great myk. Thanks for asking.

Trust me, this will be a rollercoaster for your emotions. Because the WAS can turn their emotions on a dime. Be careful not to peg your emotions on your wife. Redirect it instead on your kids.

When I read too much into my W's actions, I do keep the reality in perspective in order to protect myself emotionally as much as possible.

Here are some examples from this past weekend:
1) Why did she agree to have lunch with me?
2) Why did she suggest that we go as a family to a college football game on Saturday?
3) Why did she agree to a movie and dinner as a family on Monday? I never told her it was for her birthday.

I'd like to think that I am drawing her back to me, however the reality is that she thinks that everything is alright despite a broken family. A justification of her decision in her mind.

I did turn her down to go to the football game as we already had plans.

I suppose that it can be viewed as a positive, since it allows me to demonstrate what she is throwing away. Perhaps someday she will realize that she made a mistake. I just cannot count on it, because it is not healthy.

As of this moment, my M is dead and I must live my life as so.