Thanks for the input. I take no offense to much of anything. I'm very laid back. Besides, I wouldn't be here if I wasn't living in the brutal honesty that is my broken marriage.
I'm not 'that' introverted. I don't need time alone or away. I learned early on that my wife didn't like me being on the computer all the time so I've pretty much nipped that in the bud years back. It's actually to the point where I'm not on a computer if it doesn't pertain to work or school.
So with that said - no I have no face book account. It's actually a personal thing. Once my wife shut down on me she was all over facebook and on her phone checking that account. It got to the point that I hate FB and refuse to give it my time and effort. It's kind of counter productive since I'd love to chat as I have so much to say that's been inside for so long. Hence my replies are huge.....
I admit to not having friends outside of work, but that's because I always thought our friends were mutual and we did things together. I take part in team sports and at times will hang out after games, but my priorities are different. I don't feel like I need people to validate my existence. Granted, the hard part is I've learned a lot about me since I woke up back in June and I have so much happiness that I want to share it with others. Problem is, I have to 'develop' friendships and I'm trying.
I'm here for answers and insight. As I get to know people I learn to care about them as it is natural to bear your heart and not care about the people that listen to you.
I'm trying to get into volunteer work to meet new people and give reason to be happy over to others. My schedule is tough and interfering.
Is my wife just burnt out? That's just another fork in the road for me at this point. It may explain some of her behavior, but I would think she would have more insight into her 'feelings' and instead of telling me "I don't know why" when she tells me she's annoyed with me, among other things she says. She offers no explanation to any claims she offers. I don't badger her, but I will inquire about some things when she confronts me.
My greatest concern at this point is that I know that actions speak louder than words and it just seems like my actions have done nothing for over a year now....... Aside from feeling better about life.
