The Long Dark Tea-Time of the Soul

[LearningPatience]

Well, I've been away for a week visiting SIL and SD and I see that there have been hundreds of postings since then. Way too much to read, I need someone to provide an executive summary: any Ds, any Rs, anything interesting or exciting?

I had a wonderful visit! Got some good runs in at 5500 feet (Aurora has a nice trail system), went to Taste of Denver with SIL and her S2 and essentially hung out with them (and her S8) for three days.

Before this trip, I wasn't very close to SIL, as I only see her once a year when she visits the rest of the family. It was like we had an instant bonding while I was there. She's a lot like her sister (my W) and we talked about her a lot (both SIL and I would bring up topics). None of it was uncomfortable or emotional, almost like discussing a common friend.

Went to visit SD (with SIL and kids) on the other side of the Rockies for a day. SD asked how her mom was. "I dunno" I said, "You probably talk to her more than me." W doesn't talk too much to SD either I guess, or at least nothing too personal about herself. I found it funny that one of the first things SD said was that she was acting like the adult and her mom like the teenager. Had a great, but short, visit and went back the next day.

I listened to the KLA mp3s on the drive back home. It was good, but I don't know if listening to R advice in the middle of nowhere Nebraska was a good idea. Made me actually 'think' about my W and what I want my R with her to be. I really don't know and between that, and an unexpected detour due to Missouri River flooding, I was grouchy and frustrated by the end of the day. At least I was conscious of this, so I knew once I ate, got a room and relaxed I'd be alright. I ended up having a great night; spent a few hours at a sports bar talking with a cute bartender and another waitress. It felt great that they came back to talk to me in between their customers. Went to bed with a very nice ego boost.

I haven't spoken or even emailed/texted W since our ice cream outing nine days ago. We have a MC appointment tonight, have no idea what we will talk about.

I think having the great interactions with SIL and flirting with the bartender is making me realize what I am missing in terms of female companionship. The question I have for myself is how much longer I want to (or will) go before either W and I regain that or I throw in the towel and assume it will come from somewhere else.