time and distance

[any chance?]

I am finding it is very difficult to seperate the two options, and that they are strongly intertwined. I do realize, however, that option #1 needs to fade as option #2 becomes stronger through time.

Part of me just wishes it was over now, so I would have the final certainty. It is the limbo that keeps option #1 hanging around. But of course the other part of me hangs onto the shred of hope that there will be a turning point at some time and W will let the fog lift. But I cannot let my life be guided by faint hopes and dreams, now can I?