Came across more info late last night, this time, not due to my snooping. I don't know how much more, I can take. Another punch to my gut. I'm sitting here, and I just don't know..
Last night I was reading my homework in the chair, and D wakes up crying with leg cramps, so H went to tend to her. But he got up off the computer before closing out his browser... I had to get up and go to the computer to sign in to my classes. I turned on the screen and saw everything in front of me... I KNOW I should not have read anything, but it was very hard for me to look away.
In one journal entry he talks about how he went for a beer with ow when he got off work, and lied to me and said the truck ran out of gas in town and would be late. He went for the beer with her and a group of people to see her off before she left.
And on this entry he wrote, "I was torn up about her leaving, she will be gone for six months. I now have six months to pack up my marriage and get it over with".
So basically... he was planning to get rid of me and D before this girl comes back. He was planning to spend six months trying to hook up with her... and get me and D out of his life. According to the emails I saw, she was barely responsive to his frequent emails and he was acting desperate about her, asking her to write, respond, but she wrote once to tell him how busy she is and did not seem as interested. I know that he started this EA to escape his pain..
But seriously? He had a plan to get rid of me within six months. Wow...
I don't know what to feel here. Feel very sick inside. His plan is almost... I don't know.. evil?
In that same journal entry he wrote, "I hope (ow) will answer my emails, I hope she will like me as much as I do her".
Ok, so this ow he is chasing... does not return the affections he has for her. She has not given him anything but smiles and small talk at work.... he has built up this fantasy about her... and based on his hopes of being with her, he is ready to kick me and his daughter to the curb.
Any thoughts on this?
Thank you so much again, for the responses. I come here to read them when I feel as if I'm slipping off the ledge.
