Can my blah blah blah pt 2?

[Julz]

Just remember the OW has your second hand goods!

[a girl]

Thanks, guys - I appreciate it.

I'm very blessed to have such great friends - as they keep reminding me, it's hard now, but in a year, I'll look back and be in a better place - regardless of who I'm with. And if I am with someone, it will be someone who deserves me - and right now, H is *not* that person.

[~¤DG¤~]

Girl your friends are absolutely right. I remind myself of that also.
In a year from now, we'll be able to look back at this point in our lives and say "Look what I got through."

[paige40]

You have some great friends! We all need to remind ourselves of that. Lets get T shirts with that printed on, haha!

[a girl]

Thanks, guys - I'm feeling better today. I was up late last night talking to my friend T - he's a really good and rational influence. I always feel better after I talk to him - I worry I'm a little too dependent on him, but when I mentioned it he poo-poohed it.

Anyway. One day at a time.

[~¤DG¤~]

Yep, that is the best we can do. Sometimes I go by one hour at a time. Those are the very bad days.

I talk with my brother when I am down, like your friend, he is very rational about things and always makes me feel better.

I'm glad your better today.

[a girl]

Thanks, DG - I hope you're doing ok today too.

I just keep reminding myself that I'd rather be on my own than be someone's second choice - and that I deserve way more than H ever gave me.

I'm still dreading the holidays, though.

[~¤DG¤~]

I'm dreading the holidays also, even though Christmas last year was awful.
We spent almost the whole day fighting.
But still...the thought of him not being there...

I tell myself I won't worry about it until the time comes.

[a girl]

Had a good night last night, although I'm a little down this morning. Hopefully happy hour with friends will cheer me up.

[a girl]

Email from H today - I thought maybe I was going to make it more than 2 days without hearing from him. This one was about how he's going to be paying down his credit card more so if I see those withdrawals from our account, be aware, and since the refi should be done and we can split our account soon it's not a big deal but he wanted me to know.

Looking through my Deleted mail, I'm getting mail from him about every other day. I really just want to not have to hear from him, at all. Bad enough I have to see him 3 days a week without email showing up all the time.