Journal: funny. As I'm getting a week away from the divorce finalization, I'm fiding that I'm not as wound up about it as I was before. What I mean by that is that although it is sad, I'm not as sad as I would have thought. Part of me is actually glad which I feel a little guilty about. Originally, I thought I wouldn't want the house or the posessions. I was wrong about that. I originally thought when the divorce came I would inject some humor and have a party. My thought as a New Orleans style wake commemerating the death of the relationship. I have no desire for that now. I don't plan on doing anything different that day. I'm still in a mode where I want a break from it all. But I'm also looking forward to my emancipation (so to speak; I still have my humor )
I'm looking forward to so much right now, it's hard to really quantify it all. I am very thankful for the time with ex, but really enjoying my life without her and looking forward to so many more things. I'm looking forward to time with my son, my friends, and meeting new people. I'm looking forward to the confirmation class I'll be helping teach and looking forward to visiting my family back in California before the end of the year.
Strikes me as odd considering how I felt this time last year. But I have to admit, I like it
Later,
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
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