That was when it got more bizarre. (Warning: the following may be a little uncomfortable )
A little later, when I was half asleep, W awakened me with, "This may sound weird, but I am really horny, and I just want to *bleep*." W is no stranger to the use of this word when angry or frustrated, but she has almost never used it in reference to the actual act, especially between us. She wanted me to satisfy her first, and I never have any problem with that - in fact, I am more comfortable that way. Then she told me she didn't want to kiss. Well, I have to say that idea wasn't very attractive to me, and I felt a little rejected. On the other hand, I knew that W had many times had sex with me when she wasn't really in the mood, just out of concern for my needs, so I figured WTF (literally).
Feeling as alone and isolated as I have lately, I really wanted more from sex than just sex. (Incidentally, I had never imagined, as a man, that an offer of sex would be less than attractive to me because I wanted more emotional depth - always thought that I would be perfectly satisfied as long as I had a horny woman) I'm not sure how I feel about last night, or how I should respond to such a request should it come up again.
I know I shouldn't try to read into the things that W does, but I have been wondering what a request like that means. Especially from someone who has never looked at sex like that, who is in a situation our marriage has never been in before. I don't even know where to start.
I know I'm a marriage book reading maniac right now but pick up Passionate Marriage, Psych. Trust me. And that's all I will say about that.
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but pick up 
