Regretful and not sure how to proceed

[In_Shock]

25 - amazing as always. Nuggets the size of Mars in wisdom. This part stuck out to me --

[i]"If I'm such a good person, then WHY did the person who knows me best, leave me?"

Yes, that is my question. It totally reduces my self-esteem and self-worth. Even though I'm highly educated, intelligent, successful in my field, etc.... this loss of R just knocks the wind out of me. WHY am I not enough? Why would someone who has seen me at my best and worst leave? Yes, yes, yes. That's how I feel! But then you come back with this:

Ouch...while we think THAT is the question...it's not. That's the thing we tell ourselves that keeps us mired in self inflicted muck. The question is "what do we do NOW?"[/i] And this made me think -- I obsess and ruminate all the time over what I did- why couldn't i be enough? etc.... when all that is doing is weighting me down in the proverbial quicksand as I keep thrashing around aimlessly waiting for an answer. I need to just --- let go --- and stabilize. quit sinking. I guess that's a real basic of DB.