lc4, if this was on FB, it would say jbnati likes this under it.
I think KD had some excellent suggstions. For me, some of the changes that appear on the outside had to take place inside first. There were other changes that took place on the outside that permeated the inside. Does that make any sense?
I know you are helping out with your church, but are there some other groups you may be able to join that could help you grow spiritually? Any conferences you could attend? BTW - we gave a book to the kids at the detention center - "The Rhythm of Life". Someone gave me a copy to read. It's about becoming the best possible you. There may be some other books you could check out, too. Heck, even the Bible has some good stuff in it. IMO, to grow spiritually, you have to turn to God, and let him re-make you.