New here, not new to this: Still not easy...

[In_Shock]

LOL....nah....we're all grownups around here. I'd say most of us totally understand and empathize! I know I do!

You are doing so well right now with 'staying the course'. NO NO NO NO NO R talk. Don't start it. Don't get sucked into it. Remember, you and I have found out first hand all it does is hurt US and we're already f-ing hurt enough without having the knife in our backs turned and salt rubbed in the wounds. That's how I keep myself now from doing R talk. I visualize knife and salt. LOL. It is working so far.

I am a person who will talk stuff to death - to my detriment. It's my biggest hurdle.

Lucky, it is SO hard to have WAS come and go -- still being there but not 'being there'. Last night W and I were playing with S, but right in the middle of a game, she was turning away and constantly texting OW. My heart just felt CRUSHED> She can't even be bothered to spend time with sweet little S without being all wrapped up in OW.

I haven't heard you mention much about K lately. Keep focusing on YOU and KIDS. You are definitely getting stronger. It's obvious to me. Stay the course. Update often!!