Regretful and not sure how to proceed

[In_Shock]

Lucky, I'm on anti-depressants, mild anti-anxiety, and all that too. I guess it will help eventually more. Just trying to hold on for my little one. I hope your meds kick in soon and well!! If you're like me, fight the urge to self medicate. I don't even think about it b/c I want to be the best I can be for S. If not for him...well...can't say I'd be as responsible as I'm being

I have a DB coach appt on Friday, but I see my IC today at 4pm. The problem is, well, several. This is a small town and my W, me and the OW (!!) all see the same IC. Can you even believe that? I almost choked when I realized that!

It's making me very uncomfortable, and I believe I will have to change C's.... I can't fight the feeling that C is pushing those two together,(my own projection/paranoia, I know LOL) and also C telling me to just move on and give up on DBing and the R..... I KNOW C's are there to make US strong, but there are too many f-ed up dynamics in this for me to keep going to this = actually really awesome C.

Does anyone know or does MWD have anything I've overlooked that recommends or leads us to Solution Based therapists throughout the country? I'd be willing to drive a bit just to get to someone who supports my efforts to save my R and my family.