In regards to moving on vs. hope.. I think we all have a little bit of hope, otherwise you wouldn't be on this forum. Just try hard not to let that hope give you false expectations.
In regards to the woman. I'm sure you didn't do anything wrong. Maybe it's just the universe telling you that you don't need any woman to make you feel worthy. You do that all on your own.
As for the house.. that will take time. I know you've been at this for 5 months, but there is a difference once you are "physically" separated. I use to dread coming home or being home. Time was the only thing that made it easier.
Hang in there buddy!
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
