I haven't posted in a while, but today I feel like I could seriously use some support. So much has happened since my last post. After the meeting above and H's apparent concern things seemed to be looking up. He told me he was afraid to lose me, we started seeing each other more, and he even told me he loved me (and I didn't say it first).
And then things changed. I can't even remember what the catalyst was at the time, but he got mad about something and we were back to square one. This has happened a couple of different times. I feel like a yo-yo. I hope someone can give me some DBing advice here- I have tried limiting the contact (we have a small child so going dark is not an option) and he ends up calling or asking me to call daily. Its like we are together when he wants to be, and if I try to refuse/discourage this he says things like, I must not really want to work things out because if I did I would do the things he's referring to.
So what is the DB way here? He wants to be in regular contact, comes to see me/us a couple of times a week and we have 'dated'. I have reconnected with some old friends (people I used to hang out with but he does not know) and he makes comments that imply jealousy. I feel like he doesn't want me, but he doesn't want anyone else to have me, either.
These days I just feel so tired. Tired of feeling like I'm in limbo, tired of worrying, tired of waiting. Any words of wisdom would be greatly appreciated.
