Do what I can but still have questions 4

[soccerwife]

25, I am getting control of the depression. I have only been on the meds for 2 weeks, and they are definately helping but I still went through a 2 day phase over the weekend where I pretty much couldn't get out of bed. The doctor will not increase my dose for another 3 weeks. I am hanging in there.

I am upbeat around him as much as possible. I made him a dinner just for him last night and delivererd it with a smile. And I called him and left a voicemaile that was just a joke that I knew he would like.

He thinks I am selfish for not agreeing to help with D. And he thinks that because I actually appologized for being selfish in that regard before I realized that I only want what is best for EVERYONE, including him. And there are selfish motives too, I want to be happy too. Anyway, I realize now that it isn't entirely selfish to not jump on the D bandwagon, and give him what he thinks he wants. As you said, I am not standing in his way and I promised to try to be friendly through the process if that is what he wants.

It is my goal for this week to make every single interaction between us be positive.

I talked to Laurie again yesterday afternoon. We discussed how I should approach MC. H has brought up MC three times in the last week. I think he wants to go to MC just to try to convince me that there is no hope. He is setting up the appointment and I will be ready for the worst, expect nothing, and hope for the best. I will do EVERYTHING in my power to soften him up before we get to MC.