I'm just a little over 2 years and his cycles continue. Monster doesn't show his ugly face to often anymore but peeks out once in a while. Fog is still very thick and his thinking is still very messed up. He's confused, analyzes everything, still gets extremely depress and doesn't know what has happened nor what is happening now. So don't talk about the future because it doesn't exist right now. He's in the past and moving forward VERY SLOWLY.
As for me and my 4 children, we all know that we are better off without him. We don't want him back but my children don't want to be abandonned. We are all doing well in general. We go down when XH attacks our self-esteem. Mine is coming back in full force and i will not let him abuse me anymore. It's his self destruction that i have a hard time dealing with. To much compassion i guess. I want what is best for him and my heart break when i see him broken to pieces. He has alot to work on and i can see that he's doing the work but he is far from coming out to the other side. OW as been in and out for the ninth time. Now out for the past 2 weeks.She's also a broken soul.
I'm not seeing anyone. My life as enough excitement as it is. More then i can handle sometimes but i'm proud of myself AND my kids. We are way better then the couple of years that as past and looking forward to feeling even better next year.
