I am thinking about looking into another job that would enable me to be at home more. I love my current job, but I do have to travel some. Usually three or so days a month. I do not want to do this now with us in separation, during my sons's last year of high school, even though H is very reliable and willing to cover when I am gone. Long story on why I feel this way, don't want son to feel the need to stay at his D's place if he doesn't want to do so etc etc. My gut level mother gut is kicking in and telling me to be around more this year. I am not sure if I am being over the top reactionary or if this is something I should listen to and respond. What do you think? My H thinks i am crazy beccause I love my current job, and he says he will be able to cover anything at home that needs covering when I am gone. I do have a job opportunity that has come my way recently and I have an interview on Thursday, so maybe that will help me decide.
My H is a good Dad. Very involved with our three boys even in his MLC. He prides himself on being a good Dad. It is definitely an identity issue for him. He asked today if he could take #3 son to look at college campuses in the next month. I said of course. I know I am supposed to just focus on me right now, and I promise to make better progress with this, but I hope and pray H misses being with his son everyday and realizes what he is giving up. I know I have to surrender this type of thinking.
I will try to post a conversation I had with our cleaning lady, Rita who is from Brazil and speaks very little English. She is an expert in going dark and DBing, but doesn't know it. She was my angel this past weekend.
