Still in the marathon - did I miss a turn?

[MadeToSucceed]

Make me #4...I just posted on my own thread...what was it about yesterday? Was there something in the air?

I've been feeling melancholy today. I found myself missing my W.

I really know the version of my W I love is still there somewhere.

On the way back, I shed more tears than I have for awhile. I heard John Waller's song, "While I'm Waiting" on the radio on the way back home and it really hit me pretty hard. If you're familiar with the song, I feel like I am living that song...again.

All three of these resonate with me. I feel the EXACT same way. I was driving back home last night for about 2 and a half hours. The minute I pulled out of my parents driveway I started weeping. Cried out to God and was just asking for His help. The loneliness set back in. I think that is one of the blessings you have with your S. You still have someone you can share moments with on a semi-regular basis. While I know it makes things more difficult, I often fantasize about having a child and whether or not I ever will now. My W & I were planning on trying this time next year.

Turned on the radio after I got a good cry out and heard "While I'm Waiting." Got me to thinking about Fireproof and how, like you said on a previous page, I know my W & I can be sooooo much more and all the pain would be worth a lifetime with her. The floodgates opened right back up.

I say all that to say, you're still my DB'ing role model man and a true inspiration to many I'm sure. You've truly found things about yourself you never knew and found positive ways to release the pain, anger and frustration we all feel. You're not alone man. We seem to have a quartet among us that hit the wall face first yesterday/last night. And I'm sure there are others. But today is a new day. We have to find a way to embrace it. "And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them." -Romans 8:28

Praying for you brother.