I'm catching up on the board after not visiting for a few days. I just read your posts from last night and I'm so sorry you had a rough evening. Like jb said, it must be something in the air; I found myself walking through my empty house and breaking down, also. I thought of my W, in her new home 10 miles away, and wondered what she was doing...was she happy? Miserable? Lonely? Was she online with the OM making big plans for his eventual arrival?
You have completely reinvented yourself, DG. You have done, and are doing, everything you can to make yourself into the person you truly want to be, and you're doing it for all the right reasons. We see it, your kids see it, your friends see it...if your H can't, or doesn't want to see it, that is his problem and his loss.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
I just caught up on your thread and I know exactly what you are going through. I wish with all my heart that none of us had to go through a time of life’s disappointments. You have came along way on this journey and you are currently at the next hurdle in life. Emotions are sometimes hard to control and we all must work on that every single day. I find it interesting that the WAS’s set rules and they are usually the first to break those rules. Call me crazy but when the WAS thinks they know exactly what they want, they tend to find out that it’s not even close. Reality hits back.
Live for you DG you can only control yourself and when you do control yourself emotions included, it makes the WAS wonder if they are making the best choices in life. I will say that you will come out on top no matter what if you do this for you and you alone. I know all this crap hurts and I promise you will not regret the journey the further you progress through. Time and patience are always on your side. You will come to a point where the rollercoaster is really boring and once you step off life starts falling together.
Each day can be a battle and you can win that battle by facing the fears and negative things that happen in life. Stay strong and live.
Me 44 W 38 M 18 D 18 D 13 Bomb 10/21/2010 Divorced 7/19/2011 Just getting to the 7th inning!
