I've been feeling melancholy today. I found myself missing my W. Most of the times when I miss my W, it's the version of her before we had my S. Now, I would not trade my S for anything, but my W seemed to start changing into a different person after we had my S. What's odd, is I am starting to see a lot of those qualities I liked about my W in my S now. I really know the version of my W I love is still there somewhere.
Anyway, the weather was overcast all day today, and I think it was really getting to me. That kind of weather seems to affect me more than rain. It was chilly and windy. The car said it was 102 on Saturday and today we were in the 60s all day. My S and I went up to my Mom's today. On the way back, I shed more tears than I have for awhile. I heard John Waller's song, "While I'm Waiting" on the radio on the way back home and it really hit me pretty hard. If you're familiar with the song, I feel like I am living that song...again. I felt like I lived it after bomb #1, too.
I did GAL today, but I just couldn't shake it off. I biked 26 mi. earlier in the day. I went with my Mom and S and we played miniature golf and went out for pizza.
I found myself missing my W. Most of the times when I miss my W, it's the version of her before we had my S. Now, I would not trade my S for anything, but my W seemed to start changing into a different person after we had my S. What's odd, is I am starting to see a lot of those qualities I liked about my W in my S now. I really know the version of my W I love is still there somewhere.
