Regretful and not sure how to proceed

[In_Shock]

WHY DO I LET MYSELF GET INTO THIS R TALK?????????? I KNOW no good comes from it. I hate myself and see why she left me at these times!!! Pity party for one.....

Really, she says she's done. We know that with changes, and the fact that she says she still loves me, just not in the way to sustain a relationship....there is hope. My BIG mouth should have just sat there instead of getting drawn into that talk....

I know. They speak in absolute negatives....but what if she really IS done wiht me?? She moved past me months ago.... IS THERE HOPE>?>>> OMG I need to take something and go to bed. I am obsessing and freaking out. Gotta call the DB coach tomorrow and set up something.

I'm SO scared I blew it completely by telling her in the course of the R talk that I am still in love, that i want to repair our family, that I want to have a chance to show her that I can be the person she needs.... she says it's too late.

Anybody have this sitch that worked out>?>?>> God, I'm a mess.