W just ran into one of my favorite actors from Xena on the street and had a 10 minute conversation with her. W said she was so glad I picked up and that she just had to call me. We talked and laughed about it for a few minutes and I thanked her for thinking of me. She still managed to get off the phone first! D@mn.
It was sweet, but I'm not reading into it at all. She knows I love that show so I'm glad she thought of me. I'll chalk it up as a positive. If not for the r, just that the venom has stopped.
The only thing I will say is that most likely our pleasant conversation on Saturday sparked another one today. She could have very easily texted me that info. Texting/Emailing is usually what she does when she doesn't want to actually talk to me or is scared. Who knows.
Also got briefly hung up about the fact this actress was with one of w's "guy" friends.. however if this guy was more than a friend, it would be pretty ballsy for her to say that to me. She could have left that part out.
Just thinking out loud here to make sure I don't get on my hamster wheel.
Still doesn't make it easy. It's a battle between wanting to set the boundary (make a commitment to be in my life or stop hurting me) vs. trying to keep things smooth for if she reaches out. Good thing is that I don't have to make that decision today.
Back to my fantasy football draft.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
