That last conversation happened on Friday. On Saturday, I received the signed paperwork in the mail. It got me to thinking: is she still dead-set on being separated? Now that her R with OM sounds like it's tottering, should I throw her a rope? I agonized over this one for a couple of days. I knew that if I reached out to her, I might be blowing some of the hard-earned power that I got back. On the other hand, I could see my W being the type of person who would interpret my new "silence" as indication that I've moved on. She's a very self-punishing person, and I could see her thinking that I would have no room for the idea of reconciliation after what she's done to us.
Rather than analyze it in depth, I left it on the back-burner of my mind until today. Feeling that there was no harm in it, I sent her a brief e-mail that informed her that I had received her paperwork but asked her in addition: was this still something that she was sure that she wanted to do? I mentioned that I thought it prudent to double-check based on our last conversation. As far as these e-mails go, I thought it was pretty good. Zero emotion, no begging or hopefulness whatsoever. Just asked her a straight question with some pretty good reasons behind sending it.
I have no idea of what to expect. Personally, I envision her saying that since we've already sunk so much time and money (close to $300) into this, we might as well go through with it. Which is fine. I just wanted to get a clear answer from her before this Friday, which marks the court date.
