I don't remember your whole story, but I certainly remember your 'name'. I think hearing that there are MLCers that start to come out of the fog gives all of us reason to smile..and in some cases, hope.
Something worth having and cherishing, is something worth waiting for. There's no reason to rush into anything, and I know you realize that. I hope your H does too.
You sound so well, and I'm so hoping this all goes the way you wish it to..whichever way that may be when the time comes.
Women are angels. And when someone breaks our wings, we simply continue to fly...on a broomstick. We are flexible