Regretful and not sure how to proceed

[In_Shock]

Val, so true. The ah-ha moment is like---- HEY!!!! Check me out.

Patience Patience Patience. Like so many of us I just want it to be better - mended. But it does take time. Patience is what I'm required to have. God it's hard.

So I came home, played with the dogs. W and S4 still not home yet. It's hard to DB while living together, sleeping in the same bed, but being separated. I've messed up several times with the R talking..... But my DB coach also said 'separation can breed separation" so it's good that W hasn't actually left me -- physically.... I try to keep that in mind.

My body is so sick from not eating, (before anyone says to eat, you know I can't or I would :P) not sleeping enough, and just worrying worrying worrying.....but I'm also trying to GAL === I'm taking a class this semester in addition to my teaching load. It is going to be a really challenging one, so I'm concerned about my ability to actually do the reading/writing....but I'm hoping it will help me focus.

One goal was to reach out to people. I have definitely done that. Went to one of my own new friend's houses the other night. Going out with another next week. Going to see family this coming weekend. GAL. Gotta do it and try to enjoy it

M