I am not sure if I am supposed to keep going on this post or start another one, but I want to tell you all that I feel so good about getting through this long holiday weekend and surviving in the face of H's moving out this weekend.
Our youngest son, who is the only one at home now, did finally visit H's new place. He told me it is simple. I did not ask any questions. My H has called here 4 times this weekend and I have taken 2 of the 4 calls.
I don't know why, but I feel some sense of accomplishment with getting through this long weekend intact and not pleading or begging H to come home.
Thank you for helping me with this. I hate like heck what this is doing to our boys, but I know I can't control that right now. I will do the best I can to be a stellar example to them of grace under fire. They will learn from this yes? And like many of you have said to me, the separation is some how a relief...... I did not expect this. I am sure there will be many more low points ahead. I am grateful that today, this moment, I do not feel total despair.
