I get it, Peter... You have been doing a lot of work on you and it is showing, here... and no doubt, it's showing to your W, as well...
Depending on what is going on with your W, she may still be no where near making a commitment to the M...
Yes, four months seems like a long time to the LBS... I know you understand there are many here who go 12 and 24 months in this "limbo"...
Unfortunately, it appears you have expectations that the great work you are doing for yourself will show up in results of getting the M back... and that is what hurts the LBS... the expectations...
You do have a choice of course, to push... to walk away... or to find some happy place for yourself and continue to GAL... and let your W and the M just simmer for a while...
Only you know when you're done and maybe you need to change things up a bit, for yourself... Remember the golden rule, that DBing is for us...
Whatever your choice, there is likely to be both positive and negative consequences... and sometimes what seems positive is negative, and vice versa...
I know it's frustrating... yes, you need to take care of yourself and clear your head in whatever way you feel best...
