Yes, she does know I want to be back together, we spoke about it over the weekend!!
We were talking in general, mainly about how well I felt and how happy the kids were to be with me.
She said she had been talking to a drink/drugs councellor friend of hers about me and my changes? She said that she said, it would get hard for me as I will find a lot of clarity in what I have done, and it sometimes hurts people to understand how much hurt they have caused.
I agreed totally, I said that I knew how much I had hurt her, and that I was truely sorry, but I told her the main thing I now see is that I want her back, that I'm really good, but I had a hole inside me that was through the loss of her. I told her I was fine, but I missed her.
She just listened and never dismissed anything, we get on really well!!!
We spoke all weekend as I had the kids, but we spoke not just about them!
On Saturday night she was out with her sister, and she asked me to call her while she was out regarding the kids, if they were ok, etc??, She knew they were fine, so I was a bit confused to be truthfull.
I called her about 9ish, and she was all, have they been good for you, what are you up to, etc, then after a while she spoke to the kids and hung up
She did'nt need the call, so why??
I didn't make an issue about it, but why??
I took the kids home yesterday, and she was all smiles and "how are you", asking about what I was wearing etc, all really nice and friendly
I'm now backing off completely, we are getting on so well, I think I'm getting too carried away, and too hopefull!!!
Its took me a long time to get here and I'm scared I'm going to get hurt again by getting my hope up only to be let down.
So, no contact, until she calls me.
Its been like a light being turned on, I love her and I want her back!!!!
So I need to look after me, back off!!!!!!! I need to back off!!!
