Anyway, since its my thread back to ME. I realized at the fair that we were acting about the same as we have for years and that is not what I want. I want someone I talk to and hold hands with and well I don't know how to describe it but I'm sure you all get the drift. I did act differently than I used to. I used to skip looking at things at displays because I thought it would bore him which I didn't do this time. Yeah, I looked at cheap jewelry unfortunately I was broke by then so couldn't buy any-rats!I also went off to get something different for lunch because I didn't want what him and D were having. Before I would have just had the same thing. I think I'm starting to reaize that I am SINGLE. I can choose what I want without anyone else's opinion having any weight on it. I am working toward that being how I am in any future relationships regardless of who that ends up being. Sure I love and miss my ex but that can't be what guides my life now.
