Can my blah blah blah pt 2?

[~¤DG¤~]

I know how hard it can be at first, but it does get easier.
I look forward to my alone time. I love my kids more than anything, but sometimes a quiet, un chaotic evening is what I need.

[~ kd ~]

Guhrl... sorry to hear about your co-worker...

There's only a little part of me that wishes H were around to comfort me - mostly the thought of him touching me turns my stomach. I more wish we were in a place where he could comfort me, even as a friend.

May I be so bold as to presume what you mean by this ^^^^ is:

"I wish that I had a companion, a really good friend, who was familiar with me and was able to be available with me, who could just hold me during these times, when the world feels like a scary place..."

Maybe one day that could be your H again... but anyone can fill the role of comforter and companion... when we don't have a spouse who will be there to fill those needs...

It's more about who you are willing to let in... whether you are willing to let someone in... to help soothe you... and you soothe them... in mutual respect and care...

[a girl]

KD - I suppose it is more that I wish I had *someone* who could comfort me, and that was H for so long that I guess I just naturally wish it was him.

It's not that I don't have great friends (more than I realised, actually), it's just not the same.

I'm having a pretty hard morning. This is the third Saturday in a row with a migraine and I don't know why. Stress? The only morning I wake up without S7s chubby little cheeks hugging me? I don't know.

I'm not really looking forward to going into another downturn - I really can't take much more of this.

[a girl]

I honestly have to say that I don't know what I do would do without my friend T. (He's not the "friend" from work.) He's seriously been my rock for the last month and a half of this hell - such a good guy.

[a girl]

Low key night.

Between the migraine, the tragedy at work and my current "breast lump" scare, I found myself doing a fair bit of crying tonight.

Ahh, well, tomorrow is another day.

[Endeavour]

Sorry about the migraines, a girl. I get them too and was battling one earlier today. Not fun.

Also, sorry about your co-worker (so sad for his poor family) and the lump scare (had one of those in March - again not fun.)

Hope tomorrow is a better one.

[a girl]

Having a low day today. Started my "time of the month", which is probably contributing. Was planning to take S7 out to do some fun stuff, but might just stay home and play games, as the first day is always "hurty" for me.

[a girl]

H sent an email to tell me that he was going to call to ask S7 what time he wanted to be picked up tomorrow morning. He followed this with a call about 5 minutes later - in fact, I didn't see the email until after the phonecall.

When I answered, he said, 'Hi, it's me ... I was going to ask S7 about tomorrow?'

I just handed the phone off.

But.

Uhm.

Huh?

[~ kd ~]

oh hey...! sounds like he's coming out of his fog...



NOT!




Nice he gave you a 5 minute notice... I'm guessing he expects that you sit by the computer all day and night waiting for him to send you a message...

[a girl]

KD - He seems to have fallen into this pattern of .. contacting me for reasons that are only barely legitimate. If you read back through my thread, you'll see numerous examples.

While on the phone with S7 (I could hear because H is *loud*), S7 complained I hadn't made eggs for breakfast - I heard H say I must have had a reason, and S7 said yes, I was sick. H then said that maybe they should make me a card.

Seriously, I'm not sure what's going on in his brain. Perhaps I'm being overly generous in assuming anything is going on up there.