I am only 2 days into this separation thing, but I actually do feel some relief. I am not sure for what I should attribute this.
I wonder why so many of the DB principles are so counter intuitive. I am sorry, but I would love to punish my husband right now with going dark. He should feel like heck. He deserves it. I don't want to protect myself as much as I want him to suffer from this agony he is causing me and our family.
I see him right now as this self absorbed, narcissistic person, who can't get out of his own way, to get back to the "butterfly" stage of a relationship. And it is all absurd in my opinion. How selfish can you get...... to put your three boys and me through this torture, so he can "feel" more in love? How selfish is that??? My anger is coming out, and yes, I do feel angry. The four people who love him the most in this world do not deserve this. I feel like I am dealing with a spoiled brat. Arghhhhhhh. having a bad day on this end.
