Also, probably an important fact that I left out of my summary - last year I was considering being a WAW myself. I purchased a book called "Contemplating Divorce" and filled out the questionnaires in the book.
H was snooping one day, unbeknownst to me, and found the book (I thought I hid it well). He read my answers to the questions and they were definitely not kind. He threw this all in my face during a fight (about 6 months later) but apparently had been seething about his discovery for a long time.
I never acted on my WAW feelings because I started reading R books, researching D online, and was leaning towards staying in the M when H dropped the bomb in April.
H said during our conversation the other night that he feels like I'm just going to leave him someday anyway.
Again, this is probably important and it's also why I'm putting up with his vacillation... for now. Because I've been there. Although, I did keep my vacillation to myself and didn't go all drama island about my whole decision process. Though, H did recall that once during a fight, I did say that I was going to leave him when the kids graduated from HS. Not my finest moment.
