A little bit more than 3 weeks ago, my wife started approaching me, online, over Messenger. Since then we've been in constant contact, but never talked on the phone or even met.
She asked me for forgiveness for the things she said, that they were harsh, unnecessary and that she was feeling guilty. I said that things between us weren't okay and that something had to happen, so, they were probably necessary.
She has been asking my help with assorted things. She's currently on holiday abroad and we are in constant contact, she said she always enjoyed spending holidays with me and that she misses having someone to have a good laugh with. She's not using her wedding band, though, and left it behind in the house.
When she gives a little step forward she always says that she can't promise anything, that she's very much happy the way she is at the moment, and that she doesn't hold the keys to the future. She also says that she wants things to go according to her pace. I answer that life comes without guaranties and that I'm okay to continue showing her good things and to give small steps. For a few times she mentioned that I'm the old me again and that she likes the new things in me.
We also have been having more intimate conversations, and sometimes she's very cheeky, even sending me some photos (again, saying that she isn't trying to tease me or to be playful). We always spend the night connected online, and we contact each other first thing in the morning. Most of the time she initiates contact.
I've been following the book's advices, I'm receptive, loving in return and continue to work on myself and to GAL. Sometimes I'm guilty of being too receptive, too excited, but it's very difficult to control it, especially because we spend a lot of time in contact with each other.
I'm very anxious because I don't know were exactly this will take us to. I decided to let things go according to her pace, and that I'm here for her, although I continue to work on myself and on my life. Because the only contact we have is through Messenger, sometimes I find myself trying to interpret every little message, every little context, and I find this very painful.
My worst fear is that she's only considering me as a great friend and contacting me because she's comfortable with my presence and with the good things I provide her. I'm afraid of putting myself again in the open field and being shot again.
Do you guys things I should change anything, or that I should leave things as they are and continue going according to her pace? Do you think I'm doing anything wrong? I am very anxious, fearful of the future, disturbed and confused, but I think I can handle it if it is so save our marriage.
Thank you very much for your time and attention, regards.
Me: 36 Wife: 33 Together: 09/2007 Married: 03/2010 I love you but...: 06/2011 Separated: 06/2011 Rebuilding: 11/2011
