Of Men or of Angels

[Truegritter]

I hope this gives you peace in moving forward with your life and to enjoy it and make the most of it everyday.

I am hurting.

It is like the first day I knew about the A right now. I knew it would come and I welcome it actually.

Let it come.

I can handle it. And I will push through.

I have learned an amazing strength. Within myself.

I still am not sure what you wanted the result to be. I hope that you are at peace.

I want peace.

As much as my heart is raw right now. As much pain as I feel right now.

I would not trade this journey for what I have learned.

I consider myself one of the strong for having endured it.

And my God do you learn.

I had to do this for me. I have learned what it means to stand in the face of seeming defeat.

And to let go on my own terms.

Make no mistake, here at the end, it was the reconciliation in a bath of fire.

And I am burned. There is no other way to come through this than through it.

I am sure I will have more to say and feel but I wanted to put these thoughts down now.

I have my ever loyal pup, and my friends here...

I am not alone.

You think you will be prepared for the end but you really never will be.

I do not speak of self indulgent sorrow. I just speak of two of people who held such promise and innocence as they embarked on a wonderful romance.

That will never go away.

And I guess that is just the way it works...