Pretty sure this is a MLC or Identity Crisis

[tested metal]

Heys! Just journaling so I don't blow on W. Even though i know it doesn't matter if it really is MLC or WAS because i have to treat it the same way, I am wondering if W's parents selling the family farm, when we were together for the 1st year, might be a trigger. She really had a hard time with it and I can see it symbolizing her losing her childhood. I am sure I am reading too much into it, but humor me, because I am at that stage right now.
I am working on GALing, by not responding to texts, unless they are important or involve the daughter. The real Galing will start next week after I move out. (Please see previous posts before commenting on the moving out, trust me it is better for me at this time financialy and emotionally.)

Today when I came home I smelled OM's cologne on my daughter (AGGGGHHH!!!) This is very hard to deal with and keep my mouth shut. I don't like the idea of W exposing A to daughter although she is only 1 yrs. old, but not much I can do, unless I file and start the whole process, which is what she wants me to do. I suppose daughter is physically safe, but am worried about her having "uncles" in her life. This probably will happen even if we got a D, so it seems out of my control either way.

I guess he "whys" really don't matter all that much, but I am trying to understand what is going on with W, so i can empathize and probably make it easier for me to deal with.

I am a man of great faith and sometimes wonder if i strayed from God's path by getting married (I was in a seminary), but then I believe that my beautiful daughter must be in God's plan, therefore I was supposed to be married and if marraige is supposed to last a lifetime and i am pro-marriage, then I am still trying to follow God's plan and that hopefully things will work out in the end. If they don't, I believe God will have greater things in store for me, but this test must run it's course first. It is a test for me and my W. If she fails, she will probably be miserable for a very long time. If I fail, I could also be miserable with the what ifs. So I am now going to put my faith in God's hands to guide me with this delimma.

God grant me the strength to control what I can control,
To let go of the things that are out of my control,
and have the Wisdom to know the difference.