so nothing further ased or talked about with the car for now...
i did send one text back and said something like 'im guessing by my actions in the past make it seem like i dont care about your safety, i do truly care and will do all that i can to make you feel safe'
hope thats not pursuing too much and still lets her make a choice about using me for anything to help.
on the other issue about our kids, she asked yesterday or said... she needed me to watch them friday night if that was ok, i said that it was and until just a minute ago thought thats what we were doing. got another text that basically said she has found arrangements for the kids tonight, she no longer needs me but thank you anyway.
im truly not out to win, but it feels like by me leaving her alone she is just moving even further away from me. yes im mind reading a bit, and i know i cannot change her, so i will not try, just venting a bit here cause yeah its a little bit scary not knowing, and since knowing everything is how i controlled her in the past.
i was getting a bit nervous about seeing her tonight anyway so this puts that off til tomorrow. the in person contact is where im still pretty bad. ive been pre loading how to react to, and to expect anything!
so i have another evening to GAL tonight, a few hours at least. lets see if i can find something fun to do!
