JS - Thanks for the kind words. I feel strong about 90% of the time, which is good. But I don't kid myself that I'll have another downturn - my only hope is they come less often, and leave sooner.
Sometimes some of things he's done/said hit me and it literally takes my breath away - but again, less often, and I'll take any progress I can get at this point.
H: 39, Me: 37 SD: 18, S: 7 M: 9, T: 10 "I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11 Discovered online affair - 7/11
A coworker that I've been close to for a long time was in a horrible motorcycle accident yesterday afternoon. Today his family made the decision to take him off life support.
I can't even imagine the pain that they're feeling - my heart breaks for his children. If you have good thoughts to spare, maybe spend them in this direction, just for tonight.
H: 39, Me: 37 SD: 18, S: 7 M: 9, T: 10 "I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11 Discovered online affair - 7/11
Hang in there a girl!! Hopefully you can relax some this weekend and take your mind off things.
Me: 43 W: 37 Together: 18 M: 15 D: 8 yrs old ILYBNILWY: March 2011 She Filed for D: August 2011 She moved out: Sept 1, 2011 Reconciled: May 2012 Divorce Case dropped: July 2012
The office is pretty somber today. There's a memorial for him on Tuesday that most people will attend. It's just so shocking.
There's only a little part of me that wishes H were around to comfort me - mostly the thought of him touching me turns my stomach. I more wish we were in a place where he could comfort me, even as a friend.
Maybe one day.
H: 39, Me: 37 SD: 18, S: 7 M: 9, T: 10 "I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11 Discovered online affair - 7/11
Just in from happy hour - had some yummy fish tacos and good conversation. Feeling a little down, but nothing awful. Planning to hang out online and watch some comedy stuff, then head to bed.
Fridays are hard because I don't have S7 and I miss him terribly.
H: 39, Me: 37 SD: 18, S: 7 M: 9, T: 10 "I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11 Discovered online affair - 7/11