Thank you for the feedback. Everyone. Yes, I probably am making this more complicated. To the outsider it all seems very black and white. Not saying your emotions are black and white. But his actions are clear.
Yes, I am on AD's. Maybe time to bump up mgs.? Not an MD. But if you feel you need more help, ask for it.
Yes, I do like to know of his misery. I just really want to know that HE knows he made bad choices. Must he "know and admit" it, for it to be true? What if he never "gets" it and lives in squalor or on the streets. Will you want him to declare he made a mistake? How will that help you? That the grass wasn't greener and that he is the problem.Is that weird?
Not weird. Totally normal at this stage. I get it. It's not weird but, it is a waste of your time and energy. When you see that, you will feel a lot freer.
I have been consumed with this the last few weeks. Time to focuse on kids and work. My new normal.
Yes...and the "consuming" part of this is what you can and must free yourself from. In time you will see that It's such a drag on YOUR happiness, and it's not good for the kids, or you.
It isn't self loving. You need to "take exquisite care of yourself" now.
And the kids. But I think you are getting there. Let us know how things are when he finally reacts to the papers, if he does. Did you tell the L to contact him rather than having you do it? I know the L was trying to save you money (i assume) but let him/her know the situation emotionally for you...
Good luck Life, and remember that even though you feel as bad as you feel
it does get better.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
