A comment on the ADs, since it was on my mind (hmmm, punny). They helped me through two particularly bad streches during the past two years, and I'm definately thankful for that. Had been doing better - mostly - this spring and summer as the the stress in M was less. Started reducing dosage from what was low to start to less and less, by cutting pills into halves, then quarters (quite the trick, actually). IC and GP said that at this point the dose was so low as to basically be a placebo, so I could try stopping, knowing I could go back if needed. I tried, and so far it's been good. No real changes except some energy is back. We'll see. I hesitated to write about this, b/c I don't want to encourage anyone to drop their ADs. Remember, I tried twice before, and the results wen't very good! Anyway, so that's the sitch.
Feel like through this I've sort of grown up, like I wasn't a full adult before. Course, it's been 2 years so....And now I have some better coping strategies.....well, dropping the psycho-babble.....I'm stronger. And thank God for that.
I still have challenges, especially this time of year. And I am still wary of Ws boss, but I've changed and she seems to have changed her behaviors at work....so we're heading off in the right direction. Challenges for me are:
* do NOT get exhuasted, cause I need some energy in reserve to deal with M. never run on fumes.
* mantain some good friends and hobbies.
* be mentally ok with not doing things perfectly, with criticism, and saying no.
* Have set some "boundaries" and feel like I could actually stick to them b/c I don't feel that losing M would kill me.
* exercise!
* being ok with some conflict, because that's how my W operates.
