Feeling melancholy today. A lingering sense of sadness that I can feel in my heart and my throat but not powerful enough to bring me to my knees.
It's Friday.. he's "on call" for the weekend at his place of work, which means he stays there until Sunday 5pm. So the option/fear of seeing him this evening is removed. It's my Friday where it's just me and the kids from sun up to sun down.
Saw his FB Status Update was: "There are good choice and bad choices - whatever they are, they are mine." I'm not going to read anything into it... it could mean anything. Altho' my broken, pessimistic heart is trying to lead me to believe that he's made "a decision". But I'm trying not to think about it too much.
I have a lot of errands to run in the city - a lot. That's good. If everything works out, time wise - I'd like to take the kids to another movie at the cheap theater.. either Cars 2 or Kung Fu Panda 2.
The removal of my H's love has left a big hole in me. I'm to the point now where I'm trying to fill it up with other things. My kids.. my art... and my GALing.
