Of Men or of Angels

[Truegritter]

Those moments are rare, I think, but so powerful and they are a gift.

Yes I believe in those.

I think I am heading for one.

Each moment I ask and pray for clarity.

Another clear moment of truth came to me this morning.

To love someone is tremendous responsibility.

It is an obligation to be responsible to the person you love.

When I first got here, and still to some degree today, I tend to look at it as my responsibility and it is.

For my own choices.

It is HERS for HERS.

She has not chosen to be responsible in her choices for me, her love for me, or our M.

It is a GREAT responsibility.

And you either can do it and believe you can with all your heart and without any doubt that you will commit yourself to it.

Or you can't.

If you can't then at least be responsible enough to know that and don't pretend you will.

That is the clarity I will need to see from her.

BUT

I am not waiting or counting on it.