Regretful and not sure how to proceed

[In_Shock]

I keep hoping this infatuation will blow over, but it seems to be intensifying.... she is sharing her childhood traumas with the OP right now. It came out that she is sharing some very intimate details of her life... OMG that is so painful. I think I will just go to bed.

I tried to stay out of the room as much as i could. Didn't last long enough and now this is MUCH worse. Will I make it? I am detaching as much as possible. Being as unintrusive as possible. Talking as little as possible except for upbeat convo. But nights are now hell. How long can I do this? Patience. Patience. But my insides are dying. I feel almost as if I'm already dead, waiting for someone to put the dirt on me.

I know I repeat the same things a lot but I think a lot of us do, and it helps....so....i cannot believe this person who I've loved and shared a life with for so long would so calously disregard my feelings in every possible way.

Does she really hurt while she's talking to the OP?? She HAS to know how this makes me feel. Do the WAS have any f ing feelings at all for us?????????? (vent over) Goodnight!!!